Thursday, 29 March 2012

Nutty Nuthatch

The Nuthatch that thinks he is a Budgerigar!

This Nuthatch obviously thinks that his reflection is a threat, he has never bothered with the mirror before.

I can only assume that it's now the mating season, and he wants his reflection gone, so he can have his lady friend all to himself.

It's amusing to watch, but if he carries on I will have to take the

Sunday, 25 March 2012

The Devil Makes Work For Idle Paws!

Yesterday Badger Boo wasn't feeling too well, so he had a quite day at home and in the garden and was now feeling so much better today.

We do worry sometimes when he isn't himself, as he is now 10.5 years young and starting to slow down just a tiny bit.

This morning he had a gentle stroll to read his morning papers, had his gravy bones then Himself and I went shopping.

On our return, the house was unusually quite, no mad pup to greet us at the door, I had an awful feeling of dread that maybe Badger

Saturday, 24 March 2012

A Change is good, isn't it?

A change is good isn't it? 
I sure hope so, I've been messing around with the settings and lost the layout the I liked for this Blog!

OMG I can tell you that is not good when you suffer from O.C.D. as badly as I do!

I've spent several hours trying to get things back to how they were without success. So in the end I decided to go for something completely different, that way I'm not going to be looking at it all the time and getting worrying thoughts.

It all started when I created a new Blog for Badger Boo, to stop

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

Grumpy Bear

After the good mood of last week and everybodies lovely support from going out, I'm sad to say things aren't going so well this week!

I'm back to being exhausted, withdrawn, paranoid, craving the solitude and letting my O.C.D.  take over as it makes me feel so safe.

I wish I knew why these feelings happen, although I suspect it has
something to do with the fact I have to have a medical at the end of this month, to see if I'm fit enough to go back to work. It also mentioned about what would happen if I couldn't go back to work.

Go back to work, bloody cheek of it!!!!

I've only had 9 days sick in the last 12 months, and I suspect it is an excuse to get rid of me to save money!

Consequently I have been spending a fair amount of time worrying about whether I will have a job for much longer, and if not how will I support myself?

It's really hard to explain the totally feeling of dread that has blanketed me at the moment, but it is like all emotion has been sucked out of me and I'm just an empty shell.

The feeling of dread as I drive to work, gets stronger and stronger as I draw nearer, and doesn't start to lift until I am back at home.

Although each time it lifts, it lifts a little less, and that wall I built around myself is getting higher and higher!

Only time will tell how long this latest episode will last, but I hope for my family's sake it doesn't last too long!

Saturday, 10 March 2012

Just for Fun...

Copied from a friend on facebook, thought it was time I added some humour to this Blog... Hope you find it as funny as I do... Warning:- This does contain some swear words!

Dear employee:
As a result of the reduction of money budgeted for all department areas, we are forced to cut down on our number of personnel. Under this plan, older employees will be asked to take early retirement, thus permitting the retention of younger people who represent our future

Therefore, a program to phase out older personnel by the end of the next fiscal year, via retirement, will be placed into effect immediately.

This program will be known as S.L.A.P. (Severance of Late-Aged Personnel).

Employees who are SLAPPED will be given the opportunity to look for jobs outside the company.

SLAPPED employees can request a review of their employment records before actual retirement takes place.

Thursday, 8 March 2012

Doing the Hokey Cokey

Having no control over my own legs drives me bonkers!!!

I can't sleep or get any rest because all they do it twitch!

Sometimes like now all I want to do is sit down and read a book, but because of this constant twitching I can't! Instead I'm hobbling around writing this on the iPhone  hoping my medication kicks in soon so I can just sit down and rest!

The Morphine patches I use for my pain management are the probably the cause of these Hokey Cokey legs, but I can't function without them due to the pain of my Arthritis.

The more I try to ignore the twitching the worse it gets.
It keeps me awake at night, whilst the drugs make me tired!
So I'm in a no win situation, massage of my legs can help, but not always possible as sometimes I'm on my own and massaging my

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

"Baby Steps" and "Panic Attacks"

Last night I took the bull by the horns, and went out alone to meet people I don't know in a pub. 
As a Recovering Alcoholic with Social Phobia it was a massive thing for me to do!!!

I've wanted to relearn knitting for some time now, to keep my hands flexible with the Arthritis, I've made enquires about private lessons but the cost was way beyond my budget, so I had to give up on that idea.

Whilst browsing twitter yesterday, I stumbled across a retweet about something called "Stitch 'n' Bitch" at The Snug Bar in Godalming.

Question to self:- 
I live in Godalming, I've been to The Snug Bar.
Could I really overcome my panic attacks and pluck up the courage to go?

If I want to do it, it's only myself holding me back!!!

Funny thing is, anybody that knows me thinks I'm a confident