Saturday, 15 December 2012

Now Panic and Freak Out

Only two and a half more shifts to go at work and next Wednesday I officially become a retired person Eekk!

 I'm only 47 years old, but they say I'm not fit enough to work there anymore so that will be that.

It has been quite an emotional week.

 Because of the way the shift system works I had to start saying my goodbyes this week, as I won't get to say my goodbyes to some of the wonderful people I have worked with over the last 13 years as they will be on rest days next week. 

Mind you there are some people I'm so glad I will never have to set eyes on or make polite conversation with ever again. Luckily they are only a small percentage of the workforce, most of the people there are brilliant and have been great to work with. Several I consider to be very good friends and I really hope we keep in contact after I leave.

So what will I do with myself?

I have absolutely no chuffin' idea!

Regular readers of this blog will know how much I have fought against this retirement decision, but to be honest I have got to the point now where I'm actually starting to look forward to it.

Love the title of this little book of quotations and thought it very apt lol

My job has kept me clean and sober for 13 of the 15 years since I cleaned up my act and stopped wasting my life. It's not always been easy, I deeply regret the years I wasted staring into the bottom of a Whiskey bottle and being estranged from my son, but I stuck with it and now we have a proper relationship again, and just because I will have time on my hands soon I intend to continue to remain clean and sober.

I love my job but as one door closes another one opens, well hopefully it will after Christmas as I will need to find myself a part time job to support myself **gulp**

A couple of weeks ago I knuckled back down to a healthy eating plan again, I really hate the word diet, I had worked so hard to lose over 7 even stone in 2010/11 and although I haven't put any weight back on, I am still a fatty with rubbish knees who needs to lose another 80 pounds. You can check out my weight loss story here, but I warn you the first picture is truly horrendous!

I've put a weight lose tracker on the left hand side of my blog under the Archive, because if I do it publicly I'm hoping it will keep me on track.  This is what it looks like (see little dog below) and as you can see I have lost 8lbs already, only another 72 to go.

I'm looking forward to spending a lot more time with my family, friends and of course my little dog Badger Boo plus spending time doing things that I enjoy, as for the last couple of years my life has just been work and sleep as I'm always so exhausted.

Through this blog I have had some wonderful support from people I have never even met, plus made some really good friends. I don't know what the future holds but rest assured I will be keeping you  all updated.


  1. Yay, Dawn. What a great week this will be for you. I know you have mixed feelings but I am a firm believer in new beginnings x.

    1. I'm feeling a lot more positive about the whole thing now Lesley, there is a lot to look forward too, and I'm now looking forward to it xxxx

  2. I'm so pleased that you are feeling more positive. Your weight loss was really impressive, definitely something to be proud of. I lost 4 stone a couple of years ago, but now I find myself needing to shed almost 3 again. I really hope that this is the start of something which will improve your life. A part time job sounds like it will give you time to rest and relax. I'll be watching your weight loss and seeing if I can keep up with you!

    1. Thank you for you kind words, I know how disheartening it is to lose weight that you have made such an effort to lose before, would be great to have a weight loss buddy to offer support to each other, I was glad to see Emily is starting to improve at last xxx

  3. I know this week is going to be hard, but I am so pleased that you are sounding a little more positive about being retired, I am very sure 2013 will open up new opportunities for you and as you so rightly said as one door closes another will open. I am a great believer in fate and that everything happens for a reason so I know that you will find yourself in a few months looking back and knowing this was the best thing to have happened otherwise you wouldn't be doing.....! Sending love and hugs X

    1. Thank Louise, I'm a fatalist myself and believe everything happens for a reason, it is a bit scary having been there for 13 years, it's the longest I've ever held down a job. will be an interesting journey to see what the future holds. Hope you are well xxxx


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