My Brain is Mush

I'm so behind on my blogging it's driving me crazy, I want to write  more in-depth individual reviews about the places we visited on the Isle of Wight on our holiday, as I have some amazing pictures and videos.

I had plans to do an ongoing post about the allotment and how it's growing, I've not even started that one yet and it's nearly Autumn now, so that will have to wait for next year.

I really want to do a review of the Sculpture Park in Churt as it's an amazing place, again I have some amazing pictures of the sculptures. Badger Boo has written his, which can be viewed here although his view of the world is slightly different from the rest of us.

Grumpy Bear

After the good mood of last week and everybodies lovely support from going out, I'm sad to say things aren't going so well this week!

I'm back to being exhausted, withdrawn, paranoid, craving the solitude and letting my O.C.D.  take over as it makes me feel so safe.

I wish I knew why these feelings happen, although I suspect it has
something to do with the fact I have to have a medical at the end of this month, to see if I'm fit enough to go back to work. It also mentioned about what would happen if I couldn't go back to work.

Go back to work, bloody cheek of it!!!!

I've only had 9 days sick in the last 12 months, and I suspect it is an excuse to get rid of me to save money!

Consequently I have been spending a fair amount of time worrying about whether I will have a job for much longer, and if not how will I support myself?

It's really hard to explain the totally feeling of dread that has blanketed me at the moment, but it is like all emotion has been sucked out of me and I'm just an empty shell.

The feeling of dread as I drive to work, gets stronger and stronger as I draw nearer, and doesn't start to lift until I am back at home.

Although each time it lifts, it lifts a little less, and that wall I built around myself is getting higher and higher!

Only time will tell how long this latest episode will last, but I hope for my family's sake it doesn't last too long!

Throw Away Dogs in a Throw away Society

I see it's that horrible time of year again, when unwanted Christmas puppies are now being abandoned to  rehoming centers as people are now bored with them, or can't be bothered to spend a little time house training, so getting annoyed with the mess!!!

Will never understand why people buy these pups in the first place, or even why the Breeders sold them to these people!!! 

Oh yes I know why now, people bred their unhealth checked bitch to an unhealth checked dog to make a quick buck, with little regard for the outcome of the rest of the pups life that they brought into this world!!!

Who picks up the pieces???

All the amazing people out there that volunteer and work in Rescue, without these dedicated people, so many of these young pups would end up on Death Row!!!

But to my mind the worst, is people who dump their OAP dog, just because it is over stressed by a playful young pup. The OAP dog